I gave you all I thought I had
Offered my illusion to make a home with you
Really thought you wanted to make me happy
No matter what, you held my back
Was the size of my muscles
Or how broad my shoulders were?
Was my life too simple
Or my years not wise enough for you?
Were my goals and actions too real
Or my spirit too broken?
How better were they
That for minutes you gave yourself away?
For hours you dreamt away
Was my size a problem for you
Or the lack of girls I didn’t use like you had been?
Had I not been jerk enough?
Had I not had a horrible life to help me understand?
Was it that I didn’t worry about you
Like you could hurt like that?
How do you kiss after that?
And like, how do you say love without burning right there?
Is it not enough to mock my back
That you had to drag me there too?
I should have been buried there
Where the dead come alive again
And I should come back like a monster
So maybe I would have been loved
…
you left me wounded
but not enough to die soon…