We can’t hold everything together

Some moments I can smell her on my hands

Or somewhere on my body

And I wish I didn’t

Sometimes I don’t want to think

Or remember you

And I try to hurt your memory

And I do stupid things

Things I don’t like

Things I really don’t want

And I miss you

But I know I’ll never forgive you

And this smell is drowning me

Maybe you understand

I wish you’d do.